Not in the mood...

Ok it was one of those nights when I just wasn't in the mood for anything. Tonight I came home from church and youth choir practise feeling pretty down and depressed, normally I'm bussing and on a spiritual high but nothing was happening with me tonight. First there was community singing and I was totally not prepared for it, I was debating with myself during the day weather to go to the odyssey or to go church and get a good pratice before the music night on Friday. Well to start off I arrived kind of late and I left my music at home so dad had to drive back and get my music, also the fellow guitarist didn't know community was on so I was left with only the fluteist's, then to make it even worse I left my capo (a wee device which makes your guitar a key higher) in my other guitar bag which was outside down in the bottom car park and most of the songs needed the use of the capo, so I was basically standing there trying to make some attempt to change the keys...which I find very hard!!

So with community singing over and most of the hymms out of the way I got a wee break during the sermon to catch a wee breather. Well I wasn't so much in the mood to listen to Rev Small so I decided to read the book of revalations which I was studying earlier, and what a book I must say, infact I was left quite scared by the time I finished it, I never knew all that stuff with the dragon and 8-headed beast was in the bible, sounds like something out of Harry Potter! Ok so when church finished it was time for the good stuff, as I've said before there's nothing I love more than playing with my own youth choir...not the case tonight!! To begin with our painoist wasn't there so it was basically up to me and David to lead the songs, we were missing a good crowd tonight so we wern't sounding as good, I wasn't feeling the love of the songs and nothing was clicking with me, I just wasn't in the mood to praise God which I havn't felt in a long time. Then to make matters worse the last song 'Prince of peace' had to be changed slightly and not to many people knew how to sing it right...not good at this late stage. We've have practised that song so many times now and I hate to say it but I'm gettin kinda sick of it!!

Overall I felt tonight was a huge shambles, nothing seemed to be going right for me and minor things were bugging me so much. I didn't seek God and I was shown what happens when I drift from him. I've realised I need to pray to God before I do things, I need him through everything I do and I musn't forget he is my creator and he gave me everything.

Hope you all had a good night!! LOL!